I "met" Poetry Man a few months back...how did I come across you?...or did you come across me? He's been reading me and I've been reading him. I don't get the impression that much of what I write phases him. This has been a source of happiness for me in that I make friends (real time or blogverse it makes no difference) with much difficulty. There are a handful of people I have affection for who have looked on me...heard me...read me and still managed to develop something that feels like affection for me...that I actually also read as affection.
I'd like to do a belated mini (self) introduction.
I'm darkdaughta. I am a wannabe saucy wench, self described shit disturber...yeah, I think I do like to take on the role of devil's advocate for very self serving reasons...meaning that I'm trying to get various feet off my neck.
There are a few things you should know about me which will help you all to realize where I speak, write, blog from. I think this piece of writing should help.
from conception to birth
a personalized, politicized, spiritualized critical meditation on anti-oppression, consciousness and lasting change
by t.j. bryan
copyright december 2003
i mean, let me tell you about myself, so you can be as clear as possible given the fact that language is notoriously inadequate. nonetheless, i like to do this sort of telling, this sort of revealing to model what i think can happen when people come together in community. the whole keeping one's cards close to one's chest comes out of feeling unsafe, out of fear, out of ambition, out of the fact that you may soon have to be hurting or double-crossing or protecting yourself from that person you're presently smiling with.
so, i like to be clear when i meet folks in community who talk about change and activism and revolution. i ask questions, sometimes silently, sometimes not.
who are you?
can you show yourself to me in a way that says you're gonna come correct and be accountable to discrepancies between your talk and your walk?
are you able to open yourself as a gesture of trust?
do you possess a belief in the potential power of our coming together?
when activists and organizers and community members come in close, i want to see if they are grounded in the beliefs they say they have. do they embody their politic? are they attempting to make change in themselves as well as in the world around them?
who the hell do i think i am?
just the person they decided to approach.
i'm just me - attempting to be discerning and make conscious choices about the company i keep. but don't worry, i'm not into withholding. i've got energy and thought and affection and alliance and loyalty
to offer. and offer is just what i do...to those who come vulnerable and willing to show me who they are beyond the facades and practiced ways of being.
some will turn their nose up at this act of self-naming referring to it
as labeling, pointing out that they hate labels. i attempt to define the space between self-naming and the labeling done by others as a chasm with very little common space between.
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